After yesterdays post it got me thinking about why I hadn’t mentioned my faith in a while. Firstly I thought it was because I was struggling with my walk with God. But on reflection it boiled down to something very simple.
So in the last 12 months I have seen a lot more traffic on my blog. A lot more people are now following my blog, and interacting with me by commenting, and if I’m being perfectly honest… I was enjoying the attention. It felt good knowing that people were interested in what I had to say, and they were so interested that they actually felt the need to comment! But thinking about it, those comments come with a cost. The cost of not truly reflecting who I am as a person.
It does put me off talking about my faith on here. Not because I am embarrassed or ashamed, but because for a lot of people they just don’t get it when it comes to Christianity. In my time, quite a few people have been shocked or surprised when I reveal to them that I am, in fact a Christian. And in all honesty? I don’t know whether to take it as a compliment, or to be offended. In one mind I see it as a compliment because some people have responded to this knowledge with “But you’re so normal!”. So I think “Oh that’s good they don’t think I’m a Bible bashing type of Christian” But also, to say that I am ‘Normal’ is actually quite insulting, because why is it that people think Christians are weird, or “Abnormal”?
“Don’t copy the behaviour and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect.”- Romans 12v2
But it also worries me, because it makes me question myself as to whether I am presenting myself in the correct way. Am I showing people the qualities of Jesus? Or am I really just trying to fit in with whatever crowd I’m surrounding myself with?
So in all honesty, I believe that I stopped posting about my faith because I wanted to be liked, I wanted to be ‘popular’ and I didn’t want people thinking I was weird!
As a follower of Jesus we should be salt and light. We should stand tall and be proud of our faith and not shy away.
“14 You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. 15 Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. 16 In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.” – Matthew 4v14-16
Sorry if this post got heavy really quickly, but this blog has always been a good way to vent and offload my feelings, so I truly believe that by using this blog, and using my journal I will start to see a difference in my walk with God.
P.S If you are one of my new readers don’t worry, there will be plenty more baby/ parenting updates for you soon. As let be honest, there is never a dull day when you live with a baby!